She tragically lost her baby Lorena on July 8 – just minutes after she was born.
And emotional Lauren Goodger has now sadly admitted that she feels like a baby ‘still there’ as her bump is ‘not changing’ and still showing.
In an interview with New magazine just weeks after her death, the former TOWIE star, 35, said: ‘It shouldn’t have happened. It breaks my heart that I won’t see him grow up.’
‘It breaks my heart that I won’t see her grow up’: Lauren Goodger has sadly claimed she feels her late daughter Lorena is ‘still there’ as her lump ‘doesn’t change’
Explaining how doctors spent eight minutes trying to revive her second child, Lauren explained how she had originally planned to give birth at home.
It was when her midwife could no longer detect a heartbeat that the TV presenter was rushed to hospital, and contractions began two days after her water broke.
Admitting she was screaming outside Queen’s Hospital in Romford, Essex as her daughter’s head popped, Lauren was later told her umbilical cord had split in two and wrapped around the baby’s neck.
Lauren told the publication she ‘never thought I’d be planning my own baby’s funeral’ and that her ‘restless’ body feels like she’s ‘missed a baby’.
Heartbreaking: In a new interview just weeks after his death, the former TOWIE star, 35, said: “It shouldn’t have happened. It breaks my heart that I won’t see him grow up’
He continued: ‘I am healing. I’m still bleeding – I feel like I’m stuck.
‘I don’t get anywhere by blaming myself. I have to try and move on and accept. First I need to understand. He was just perfect.’
Accompanied by her boyfriend Charles Drury, 25, the couple stayed with Lorena for 24 hours where they took pictures – which she now carries with her – and had her hands and feet made.
Lauren has also claimed that she is not ready to consider trying for another child and will not choose to have another natural birth, opting instead for a C-section.
The influencer recently spoke to The Sun about her experience, revealing that she ‘stayed up all night with her newborn, kissed her and bathed her and sang to her.’
‘I stayed up all night with my baby and I bathed him and kissed him’: Lauren recently opened up about the loss of her baby daughter Lorena as she planned her funeral (stock image)
Lauren has been supported by Petals – a regional bereavement charity who partner with the Queen’s Hospital.
He said: ‘Hospital and Petals were amazing. Lorena stayed with me the whole time. I bathed him and put him in the white baby that is Larose’s. It was good.
‘I held her and kissed her. I sang to him and we played songs. He just looked like he was asleep.’
Lauren, who is also mum to 12-month-old Larose, with her partner Charles said family and friends came to the hospital to support her and it was ‘a very emotional evening.’
Sad news: Lauren paid tribute to her daughter Lorena who passed away on July 8 – she is her second daughter with boyfriend Charles Drury
Staying up all night, Lauren praised the charity that came the next day to do hand and foot prints and perform.
They also gave her a lock of Lorena’s hair and gave her a special candle and a photographer took pictures that friends put in a locket for her.
Lauren had planned a natural water birth, to be carried out at her Essex home under the supervision of her midwife Tamzin – who had previously delivered the TV personality’s first child, Larose.
Her water broke on July 6 and early life was normal, and Lauren was considered “low risk” after giving birth to her first child without complications.
Sad: In her statement, Lauren said she “will not end death”
More tests were done the next day, during which the unborn baby’s heartbeat was detected, but on the third day when her contractions started, the heart stopped beating, and Lauren was rushed to the hospital.
Following the birth for more than two hours, ten doctors fought hard to save Lorena by compressing her chest and giving her adrenalin, but to no avail.
He added that after Lorena died, Charlie’s the family went to Lauren’s house and cleaned the birthing pool.
Lauren is planning Lorena’s funeral – which will be private – and said she would like to dedicate her time to working with bereavement charities to help other parents.
He said: ‘I take each day as it comes. Without Larose I would not be here. He helps me every day.’
He said he wants to know why his daughter died for the sake of her sanity and has asked for an autopsy.
Lauren revealed the heartbreaking news that her newborn had died earlier this month.
Via Instagram to share a photo of Lorena touching her hand, Lauren wrote that she ‘doesn’t understand’ why her daughter has passed away after having a pregnancy and labor without problems, adding that she and her boyfriend Charles have been left ‘broken. ‘ to tragedy.
Lauren wrote: ‘Lorena [angel emoji] RIP 08.07.22 she was the most beautiful healthy baby I have ever seen as her sister @babylarose.x …
‘Words cannot describe as a mother the loss of your child that I carried for all these months perfectly and gave birth also to my angel taken from me. [angel emoji].
‘There was no pregnancy or birth problems and she was healthy and well but I don’t understand the details right now just know that there was nothing wrong with her or myself she was perfect.
‘I don’t understand that she is Larose’s very beautiful identical twin.. I am heartbroken [heartbreak emoji].’
Lauren admitted she would ‘never get over’ her daughter’s loss and asked for time and space to grieve while focusing on her eldest child.
He continued: ‘I’m back home from hospital. Charlie and I spent a lot of time with our daughter Lorena and we still haven’t said goodbye to her [heartbreak emojis].
‘Please can I ask the photographers to respect our privacy right now as we have a lot of grief to do and prepare a funeral which is all I need right now and my daughter Larose is my rock who is getting me through this or I wouldn’t be doing it. live…
Parents: Lauren and Charles are parents to Lauren’s first daughter Larose, with Charles saying their newborn looked like her big sister (pictured with their first born)
“I will never get over this but I will learn how to live each day and Lorena in my heart will always be with me and I will be with her again one day…
‘My [angel emoji] Lorena I love you so much [heartbreak emoji](sic).’
Her husband Charles Drury paid tribute to her newborn daughter.
Charles, who shares 11-month-old daughter Larose with Lauren, took to Instagram later in the day, writing: ‘Your little heart will forever beat inside mine.’
Charles wrote: ‘Lorena Drury – 8/7/22.
‘Our beautiful baby girl is perfect in every way, 8/7/22 will always be your day. Your little heart will beat in me forever, I will love you until the end of time.
‘You remind me so much of your older sister, you would look like younger twins, Larose will know how beautiful and strong you were.
‘I promise you I will take care of your mother and your sister forever, look after us all and give me strength, show me a sign that you are in heaven where you belong. I’m sorry it had to be this way but I know we’ll be together again one day.’
‘This is not something I thought I would ever write but I am proud to be your father, I will see you soon baby girl but for now sleep well.’
If you have been affected by anything in this article, please contact Child Bereavement UK on 0800 02 888 40 or The Lullaby Trust on 0808 8026868.
The touch: Lauren revealed she printed her daughter’s hands and feet and was given this beautiful candle.
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